Make friends with your pain!

"....grieve for what you have lost and make friends with your pain, for this is all you'll know from now on!"  ...........what a load of b@#*#@s!   

This is a statement from a nurse in the pain clinic who was treating a colleague for her pain.  She obviously has never suffered the pain of scoliosis!   She reminded me of a midwife I once had who ran our anti natal classes, it was with my middle child so I'm going back 17 years, but she told us that the pain of child birth was a beautiful experience and we were to embrace the pain and remember how beautiful we are and that the pain is beautiful!  I asked her if she had any children, she hadn't! She doesn't know but it's what she will think when her time comes.   Another load of b@#*#@s!!

I never understood the difference between back ache and back pain, you think back ache is bad, I know I did but the pain is unbelievable. I have a very high pain threshold, always have,  but to still have pain while I'm dosed up to the eye balls on stupid medication that's made me fat and bloated is depressing, very depressing.  I can't see anything past the pain. I don't or can't do anything, I can't see my friends, I struggle through my day at work with a brave face on but inside I just want to curl up and cry. It hurts to walk, to sit, to lift, some days to breath. Pain is the enemy and it taken over my life, I've lost my looks, my dignity, my self confidence and self esteem.  I'm totally cut off from the world.  

So, I ask you,  who in God's name would seriously want to befriend that?!