Finally!!!

I was so pleased on Monday this week.  After months of agony, injections, pain killers, chiropractors and lost dark days I have a date!   I was so happy on the phone when the Consultants Secretary told me I was scheduled for theatre on the 23rd October that I cried!  Finally I might begin to feel just a little better.

I'm having two titanium rods inserted in my spine and then bridged across to my pelvis to straighten and fuse my spine from T2 - L5, (thoracic 2 - lumbar 5).  When I was first told that this would happen back in March I was terrified, it's a massive operation with a long recovery so I did the worst thing imaginable and 'Googled' the op!  That was a huge mistake, the pictures and detail were so graphic that I had panic attacks and tears nightly.  One of the pictures had a patient (well looked like a slab of meat that they practice on) lying on the operating table, open wound from her neck to her arse (I assume it was a woman - I don't know) with all these ratchet poles standing to attention from her spine.  All very clean and medical, but looking like something from outer space.  In fact the film Elysium came to mind with Matt Damon sporting a mighty fine outer spinal column! 

Another day I found a tutorial video on you-tube of the operation being performed in America... OMG well I managed 1.5 minutes before I felt totally dizzy, sick and had to turn it off.  I don't think that was meant for public viewing!

I meet the Consultant to discuss the operation on 6th October.  I need to lose a stone in 4 weeks.  Let's hope I do it!