In Limbo!

I am totally fed up!

I feel desperate, angry, tearful, confused and so completely helpless I don't know which way to turn.

Wednesday operation was cancelled with a promise of a new date Thursday.

Thursday I had a telephone call with a promise of a date Friday as Surgeons too busy to discuss.

Friday - no call.  So I rang them.  No reply so left a message saying that they had promised me a date Friday.

Monday morning, I decided to call them again and I spoke to the lovely Maria, who is obviously part of a very large team of people who ring patients to book and cancel willy nilly, apologised for not calling Friday, she left early!  I'm so pleased she had a good weekend, because I had nothing else on my mind other than getting a further appointment for my op!  The powers that be are having a meeting today (Monday) to discuss the cancellations and she will definitely have a date for me after then and will call me that afternoon.  2pm no call.   I had some friends round for coffee and a natter and they told me call Maria.  I hate continually calling, I'm becoming a nusiance.  3pm still no call, so I call just before 4pm.  No answer and straight to answer phone.  I left another message.

Today, I have just put the phone down from the lovely Maria, its 4pm.  I was very good, I left it until now to ring.  She doesn't have any news for me.  I'm more than happy to call daily but she will call me once she gets a date, she promises!!!  To cap it all, Mr Bishop, one of my lovely surgeons, is on holiday with his family as its half term! 

So I'm in limbo - what do I do?!  Do I go back to work to find out that I'm booked into theatre in a week or so.  Do I stay at home and wait until the op which could then be scheduled in 3 months time and effectively eating into my sick leave entitlement and ultimately losing my job!  

Is the art of communication totally dead - has Maria actually spoken to the surgeons or her Manager to explain my situation.  Do they have any idea how physically and mentally draining this whole bloody procedure is? 

I know I'm ranting but I am angry and actually I am feeling completely sorry for myself and miserable and do you know what? I don't care anymore.  This whole procedure is ridiculous and needs to be changed.

Signing off now before I start swearing and cursing!!